Im Root Without Trunk...

How we met??
We met just in tuition and no communication done before we met in SMS...We just know each other less than a week and became couples...

How a close relationship in love must be??
A relation needs to know and understand each other before starting a relationship right?..The longer the period to communicate and understand each other as a friend, the more we can understand about the personality and background of each other. Right?
Without communication, how can we understand and know what each other need?
We just met less than 1 week, less communications and end up won't understand what i really need and what my personality is like..
Since we met in less than 1 week, of course will be shy..Then??Of course wont talk much ...Then i don't know why..I just agreed to be coupled..



i always start to speak first and think topics to talk about...if we really can communicate and really understands what each other need...then open a topic to talk about sure its easy la..but alwiz she cant start to talk..alwiz me..i am standing in a hard position...if i dont open new topic..our love is just like..nothing to say...then cant continue the relationship...i just wanted to maintain the relationship...so i everyday before tuition alwiz think topic(s) to chat of before i see her..until then i already lack of confidence..
i then plan to discuss with her..i asked her y r u alwiz so diam?why dont u try talk to me??she said..i dono wad to say...(means??she dont understand me well and what topic she nid to start...she dont know what i really need...of cz !! 1 week of fren only..then lover?...of cz nothing she understand about me..but nvm...i still love her, so i gave her chances...) she alwiz say..okay...i promise u i change...but no results was seen after 5 months...

another case...since its her first love..then what a soul mate for?( soul mate - girl/boy fren)
a soul mate is to make his/her mate to be hapi back whenever he/she is down,unhappy or sad ...right?...then one day..i was unhappy..maybe becoz stress from projects and tuitions...then when i need her...i told her..i was unhappy...i never request from her to make me happy...then this time i wanna try...i told her try to make me happy...without trying...she said..i dont know how to make a boy hapi bcoz i din try before....then i said...try at least...if not, in the future...the problem of my unhappy would be bigger and harder to solve...so, i told her to learn make me happy from now...multiples of time i have been unhappy...then i wanted her to share with me...she once again cant try to make me happy...am i that hard to regain my joyfulness?? each of my friends can just make me happy in less than 10 minutes...as im a playful and unhappy-free person...everytime she dont try or fail to make me happy...i tell myself...nevermind..maybe she's still learning....give her another chance...the only thing i can do when im down is going to sleep and cry(maybe?)...but she alwiz say...why u dont need me when you're unhappy??i know im useless...but can u dont try to leave me??i wanted to make u happy but i dont know how...since she dont know how...then i told her...i dont want u to waste time tinking tricks to make me hapi , if sleep is a way..why dont i take it??

everytime, chances were given...but she just dont appreciate it...what more i can do?...what more i can say? and how many chances u still want...?she alwiz said to change...but i dono she fail / its her habit / she didnt try to change??...now im already tired of it...enough...5 months...the time were not wasted...its happy...but veri difficult life...its difficult from my angle...for hers...she is very happy,very easy life...cz i plan everything just want her to be happy...

that day at tuition...i thought dont want to sit with her as i need to discuss something with my friend...but her friend was not here yet...the tuition centre was quiet and less people were present...so i rather sacrifice my discussion first to accompany her..she just dont appreciate everything i do...after her friend arrived ...the whole period of the class...she only faces her friend and talk to her...not a single word and not even facing me...im okay since she is happy...but she still dont get it...as i said...she promised to change...but till now..she dont...i did talk to her...but its just a sentence of question and answer....have you eaten? nope...simple......................................

i was already tired of everything...disappointed and sad....its my wrong...met her less than a week and become couples...im so dumb...im so stupid...im so tired...i will end this relation...the time were not sacrificed bcoz im hapi with it...till now..the happy period is all over...everyone has a limit...my limit has reached...time is over...what u gave im happy and appreciated it...my time with you are happy..eventhough i sacrifice my time with you more than my frens , but its okay...as long as i maintain everything...to be with someone is not easy...i nearly lost a fren...but i still try to act nothing happened...im happy...but not much as what i've gave you...

thanks for what u gave and hope your next soul mate can be more lucky than me...i've done my best to change you...

as you have read my blog...pls tell me...

Im a root...without trunk..how can i grow leaves??how can the result be beautiful and long lasting...?

Without

1st - Friendship of Understanding
2nd - Look for what each other needs
3rd - Slowly Be Couple

we cant hold long relationships...